Gone

You were gone for roughly 830 days. 

But you were here 

for 67

67 seems like such a small number but research says that it only takes 21 days to form a habit. 

It only took 21 days for me to expect to see you everyday

To expect that any left over food is immediately yours the moment I walk in the door

To expect you to ask me if something was stuck in my teeth every time I sucked them. 

To expect my stuff to be touched because my hat collection is better than yours

It took 21 days for me to learn that around 11 or midnight 

you’d be walking in that door ready to ask me about my day 

It took me 7 to realize that your presence 

Was a factor in stabilizing my mental health 

That day,

It took you one second to think about me before you thought about yourself

And It only took me two to break. 

After you left

It took me 12 hours to realize that you weren’t coming home. 

The same amount of time that it took me to miss you

It took me 1 day to stop crying 

That’s a lie 

I still cry

I’m crying right got now

It took me 4 days to play your music

Just so I could hear your voice 

And then it took me 30 seconds to cry again

It took me 4 days to realize 

that you’ll probably never get the chance to see me walk across a stage. 

And that’s all we ever talked about

It took me 1 hour to realize that after that day ill never be the same 

It took me two days to stop replaying the day in my head 

Two long days to archive that shit 

It took 4 days for the bruises to go away

You were here for 67 days 

But now you’re gone.