Skip to main content

Differences

The worst part about us not all being raised the same is that
We’re not all raised the same.
I know it sounds stupid
I know you’re thinking, duh why would we want to be alike?
Our differences make us unique
Helps us stand out from each other
But what about the differences that make or break things?
Different values
Upbringings
Core beliefs
Different expectations of life
of each other?
And the things they can break
Oh the things they can break
Friendships
Trust
Relationships
Promises
So many things
But I can only think about the things they broke for me
I can only think about the fact that my whole life I was taught that hard work is the key and working is never a question
And that he was taught that a job will come when it comes and we’ll eventually be okay
I can only think about the fact that I was raised on love and the important of family while he
He was raised around people who only worried about themselves
People who would turn their backs when you needed them most
I can only think about the fact that I raised by a strong black man who would do any and everything for me no matter what.
A man who wanted to provide.
He didn’t agree with the 1950 expectations
I didn’t want to be a stay home I just wanted to believe I could be
He was the perfect lover
He was the most beautiful man
His heart, his heart was pure, even after all his negative interactions and beliefs
He was smart
But there were too many differences
Inconsistent expectations
And not enough follow through.
The greatest love I’ve ever known
And I lost it because we’re different
Because we couldn’t quite get it.

Laura Soriano

Comments

Post a Comment

Popular posts from this blog

Better to have loved....

Fall in love they said  It’ll be great they said   But no one ever tells you about the things that aren’t great No one ever tells you that some days you’ll want to punch your significant other in the throat or even in the face.  Some days you’ll want to poke them in the eyes in their sleep.  Or some days you’ll ask yourself why did you choose them?  It’s usually after they do some stupid shit like drop pizza on your white sheets. No one ever tells you that it’s okay to fight, A fight doesn’t mean it’s over.  Sometimes it’s a good thing. No one ever tells you that some days you won’t want to talk to each other, It’s okay, sometimes you need space. No ever tells you to fully commit, put your fears aside and just love  They always say be careful, you can’t trust anyone you know. So you keep your guard up.  No one ever tells you that it’s okay to not be all over social media.  It doesn’t mean he isn’t claiming you...
Post a Comment
Read more

I fucked up

If I had a time machine id go back in time  Not way back in time  But to the times when I woke up to your angry morning face every morning  Or the times where I'd find you staring at me, I'd ask what and you would tell me how beautiful I was.  Even when we fought, you never failed to forget to remind me of my beauty  I would go back to the time when you sang bob marleys "is this love" to me in a room full of people You asked me to dance, I said no But if I could go back We wouldn't have gotten off the dance floor  I would want to go back to the first day you ever told me you loved me. I brushed it off because I didn't want you to think I was making a big deal about it, But inside I was doing my James Brown dance.  I would go back to the times where I spent my spare time watching Netflix and getting high with you everydayu I would go back to the times when you would hold me close to you every night  And the times when ...
Post a Comment
Read more

Real Love

Love is not blind. Love is not rainbows and sunshine’s. Love is not easy. It’s not simple. Love is, your morning breath smells like dead animals but I love you anyway.  (Now come here and give me a kiss you little possum) Love is, I only have $5 to spend so let’s share a 4 for 4 (I’ll take the nuggets, you get the sandwich) Love is, waking up early to make your lunch for work even though I’m tired as hell and don’t even make my own lunch (I’ll probably come home at 7pm starving) Love is, making me food when we just had a full out brawl (Your fatass hungry or what?) Love is going to bed with each other after a long day of fighting and saying I love you, goodnight. (Laying in bed with you was my favorite part of the day) Love is, staying home with you even though I want to go out  (I know you be obsessed with me) Love is, watching you sleep and thinking about suffocating you. (But not Everytime)  Love is, feeling insecure a...
Post a Comment
Read more