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I JUST WANT TO KNOW WHY

I just want to know what does love mean to you?
I’m not entirely sure if means the same to me. 

I just want you to want me the way that I want you
I want you to want me like you used to 

I just want you to ask me about my day? 
You know, make sure I’m okay. 

I just want to know that this is real
I need to know that you feel what I feel 

I just want to kiss your face and hear your voice
But every time I wanna see you, you act like the plans you made weren’t by choice 

I just want to know what you want
What the fuck do you want? 

I just want to know what are we doing? 
Where are we going? Is THIS going anywhere? 

I just want to know why? 
Why do you keep doing this to me? 
Why do you tell me you love me? 
Why do you tell me you want to be with me? 
Why? 

I just want to ask you to leave me alone 
To block me on your phone.
 
Please, block me on your phone. 
Because I can’t leave you alone. 

-Laura Shedrick 8/27/19

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